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Last night my sadness woke me up and I sobbed uncontrollably.

The world was sleeping, so I turned to the Lord for conversation.

I feel like I’m getting my life together, Lord, except for these holes.

The losses I have had have these holes in me, and now my life keeps seeping out the holes.

I’ve tried filling the holes with all kinds of things; busyness, food, sympathy from others, but nothing works, I still have these holes.

And the grief from memories past enveloped me again, and I sat rocking myself, holding myself, trying to give comfort to my pain, wanting to gain understanding.

This pain sure hurts, Lord.

And then as early morning came, I heard Him softly call my name, with nail-scarred hands outstretched to me, He said so very tenderly,“I have holes too.”

And then I knew, He understood as no one could.

- Anne Peterson, 1994

I am so proud of myself for sticking with my healthy choices over the last 15 weeks!  My faith along with support and accountability has made all the difference in my progress.  I cannot wait to be under 200 lbs and out of plus size clothing!  I have never been overweight before but that doesn’t mean I was healthy.  I am learning so much about listening to my body and taking care of myself :)  I applaud all who struggle with their weight, it is one of the toughest things to tackle but the rewards are immeasurable!